Journal

I have always had a love hate relationship with my body and my looks, I always felt like the ugly duckling. I didn’t really develop until I was in high school and I didn’t really do the whole hair and make-up thing. It wasn’t my thing. I didn’t think it would make a difference and help me feel better about myself, so I never tried. It wasn’t until after I left home and joined the Navy that I felt somewhat good. I started getting the compliments and the looks. I started taking better care of myself and started wanting to look nice. Then I had my twins. I love my boys and wouldn’t trade them for the world, but after I had them things changed for me. I worried more about them and their well being then I did for my own. I didn’t like what pregnancy did to my body, I felt really uncomfortable in my own skin. I didn’t think anyone would want me now. That changed when I met my husband. He has always told me how beautiful I am, and that my “mom” body is what makes me, me.

So, after 4 beautiful boys, I really didn’t like where my body was, yet my husband still told me every day, “I wish you could see what I see”. That’s when I really decided to look into getting boudoir photos done. I didn’t think that it would work for me, I didn’t like looking at my body naked as it was, how was I going to be able to have someone take photos of me? That’s when I found the GFE! After reading the other testimonies and looked at the images, I was hooked. Again, I didn’t think I could do it. I first wanted to surprise my husband with the photos, but I couldn’t imagine doing it without him. He is my best friend, soul mate and I didn’t feel comfortable going with anyone else. He wanted me to see what he saw every day. OH, boy was he right!!!

When I got to the studio, I was a bit nervous but once I met Steff and the other amazing ladies my nerves slowly started to melt away. I couldn’t believe that I was going to get naked in front of a woman I just met and let her photograph me. But she made me feel so amazing and beautiful that I didn’t even notice I was naked. I felt strong, powerful and sexy. For the first time in my life, I LOVED myself. After I saw my images at my premier I was speechless. My jaw hit the floor. I was blushing and saying “that can’t be me!” “Holy Shit!!”. My husband was smiling the entire time, cause he knew that I finally was seeing what he sees. I was over the moon with joy at how my images turned out. I have been looking at them every day, to remind myself that I am beautiful, I am powerful and I am worthy of my own self-love.

I can’t thank everyone involved more than I already have, you have changed my thoughts about myself. I feel different, I feel sexier and I feel amazing. I take the time to look good even if I’m going shopping. I put on those sexy little panties, I grab my husbands butt. I have fallen in love with myself and I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life feeling this way. Thank you.

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